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Read & download My Dark Vanessa My Dark Vanessa Read È 109 Kate Elizabeth Russell ↠ 9 Free read Nt who reaches out to Vanessa and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice remain silent firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship or redefine herself and the events of her past But how can Vanessa reject her first love the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager and who professed to worship only her may be far different from what she has always believedAlternating between Vanessa’s present and her past My Come and be worshipped come and be caressed My Dark Vanessa crimson barred my blest My Admirable butterfly Explain How could you in the gloam of Lilac Lane Have let uncouth hysterical John ShadeBlubber your face and ear and shoulder blade From the poem Pale Fire by NabakovVanessa Wye is thirty two years old working a dead end hotel job in Portland Maine and attending grief counseling therapy following the death of her father She cannot move on with her life I suppose many of us have faced similar straits the relationship that keeps its claws embedded long after the real connection has gone What s different is that Vanessa s big romance began when she was a fifteen year old at a prep school and it was with a forty something English teacher Recently contacted by a young woman who is reviving her charges of misconduct against the same teacher wanting Vanessa to talk about what had happened to her Vanessa s recollections of her experience come to the fore helped along in her therapyKate Elizabeth Russell image from Split Lip MagazineWe all think or at least hope that we are special and are naturally drawn to people who appear to recognize our particular specialness But even with that this looks like an easy call an adult taking advantage of a child in his charge End of story But that is not the story Kate Elizabeth Russell is telling Based on her personal experiences as a teen in relationships with older men Russell asks where victimhood ends and agency begins She wonders about the arbitrariness of age specifications for statutory rape definitions Do all girls do all people mature at the same rate Is it not possible for there to be a fifteen year old with the capacity to decide for herself when to become sexually active and with whom We get Vanessa s first person telling and her take on Jacob Strane forty five when he meets her at The Browick School in Norumbega Maine in 2000 It wasn t about how young I was not for him Above everything else he loved my mind He said I had a genius level emotional intelligence and that I wrote like a prodigy that he could talk to me confide in me Lurking deep within me he said was a dark romanticism the same kind he saw within himself No one had understood that dark part of him until I came along If you are rolling your eyes and muttering puh leez you are not alone If it sounds to you like a pervy pedophile has gotten inside an unprepared kid s head well I m right there with you The uestion is not whether Strane is a manipulative predatory creep He clearly is But there may be to him At least through Vanessa s eyes One can argue that an older man may be an appropriate partner for Vanessa as long as it is her choice Our society has clearly taken the position that a fifteen year old is not mature enough to make that choice the age of consent in all 50 US states is 16 or higher But are there any circumstances under which it is ok for Strane to be using his classroom as a recruiting venue for young stuff Even setting aside the institutional power imbalance are there any circumstance in which it is ok for a 45M to be seeing a 15F This is the tension in the novel Victimization versus agency Pawn versus power Where should those lines be drawn and who gets a say in their location The story moves back and forth between Vanessa s past and present noting her growing interest in this man and his methodology for seducing her He uses an array of authors summoning Sylvia Plath Emily Dickinson Edna St Vincent Milay Jonathan Swift Robert Frost and from our literary pantheon to both enlighten his student and soften up his target Of course Lolita is a part of this I carry his books with me reading them whenever I can every spare few minutes and through every meal I start to realize the point isn t really whether I like the books or not it s about him giving me different lenses to see myself through The poems are clues to help me understand why he s so interested what it is exactly that he sees in me It also moves back and forth between showing Strane s clear manipulation of Vanessa and a realization that in her newfound sexuality she has a say I have power Power to make it happen Power over him I was an idiot for not realizing this sooner There are many literary references sprinkled throughout the book noting some obvious and not so obvious writing of a sexual nature Strane also uses his English class lectures to point out elements of his relationship with Vanessa in a way that is obvious to her but opaue to the rest of the class A class discussion of blame in Ethan Frome for example is clearly intended for his special studentVanessa sees a definite benefit in dating older men and approaches this clear eyed I wasn t pretty I d have to wait a long time before anyone noticed me because boys had to mature before they cared about anything else In the meantime apparently my only option was to wait Like girls sitting in the bleachers at basketball games watching boys play or girls sitting on the couch watching boys play video games Endless waiting It s funny to think how wrong Mom was about all that Because there s another option for those brave enough to take it bypass boys altogether go straight to men Men will never make you wait men who are starved and grateful for scraps of attention who fall in love so hard they throw themselves at your feet But there is one element here that adds some depth to Vanessa s situation V s freshman year roomie was one Jenny Murphy They had become very close until Jenny got a boyfriend and became unavailable I wonder how it s possible that I once felt so much for her yearned to be closer even as I slept beside her in the same small room our bodies three feet apart I think of her navy blue bathrobe hanging on the back of the door the little boxes of raisins wrapped in cellophane that sat on the shelf above her desk how she smeared lilac scented lotion on her legs at night the wet spots on her t shirt from her freshly washed hair Sometimes she binged on microwave pizzas the shame pulsing out of her as she ate I had noticed everything about her every single thing she did but why What was it about her Uh huh Sounds like V had had than a bit of a crush on J It is not until after they break up when they are sophos that the antics with Brane commence Rebound anyoneRussell clearly does not line up directly with the current torrent of sexual predation exposure that has become a daily part of our news feed The book has evolved gradually of course but took on a whole new meaning as the MeToo movement gained steam last year It forced Russell to not only reevaluate her characters journeys an accusation plot line had been moved to the center but also her own experiences I remember a point where I was scrolling through Twitter seeing friends and strangers putting these stories of violence and abuse out in the world harrowing horrible things and all we could do for each other was reply with heart emojis she says In a way it just seemed to highlight our powerlessness As the movement evolved the way all this trauma was churned through the Internet Content Machine started to feel perverse She continues I ended up feeling rather alienated from MeToo as a whole despite it being directly connected to my novel my life s work and I used that sense of alienation to fine tune Vanessa s character and shape the novel s central conflict from the EW interviewV is excited as a teen but has clearly been damaged by the relationship as her inability to move on with her life attests Is the narration of any fifteen year old reliable Does the appeal of the new and exciting through young eyes disguise a tawdry case of sexual abuse Is the teenager s feeling of power anything than a self delusional justification for having gotten into something she really cannot handle an excuse for the powerlessness she ultimately experiences Was her relationship with Strane one of euals ultimately Even after there is a break in their connection it is Vanessa who keeps getting in touch with Strane Is that the behavior of a victim What does the thirty two year old Vanessa see when she looks back Is the older Vanessa a reliable narrator than her younger version Clearly this book is the stuff of book club dreams as there is so much material that is politically contemporary and personally raw It gently mines the considerable literary lode that deals in April December romance In addition the book while keeping the story real and moving steps back from time to time to note real world implications that tend to slip under the radar On the drive home the car lurches over frost heaves and through potholes an endless wall of pitch black woods on either side The radio plays hits from the seventies and eighties Dad tapping the steering wheel along to My Sharona while Mom sleeps her head leaning against the window Such a dirty mind I always get it up for the touch of the younger kind I watch his fingers tap to the beat as the chorus comes round again Does he even hear what the song is about what he s humming along to If you are thinking that My Dark Vanessa constitutes a 21st century Lolita if you are thinking that My Dark Vanessa is an engaging challenging look at a subject that affects large numbers of women if you are thinking that My Dark Vanessa is a moving story written by a new novelist but with the literary skill of a veteran if you are thinking that My Dark Vanessa has already earned a place on the list of best books of 2020 and if you are thinking that My Dark Vanessa pending the release of other outstanding 2020 fiction of course might just possibly be the best novel of 2020 well you are not alone because ya know me too I never would have done it if you weren t so willing he d said It sounds like delusion What girl would want what he did to me But it s the truth whether anyone believes it or not Driven toward it driven toward him I was the kind of girl that isn t supposed to exist one eager to hurl herself into the path of a pedophile But no that word isn t right never has been It s a cop out a lie in the way it s wrong to call me a victim and nothing He was never so simple neither was I Review posted June 28 2019Publication date March 10 2020EXTRA STUFFLinks to the author s personal and Twitter pagesInterviews Library Love Fest Editors Unedited Editor Jessica Williams in Conversation with Author Kate Elizabeth Russell audio 3220 really good stuff Entertainment Weekly My Dark Vanessa Why this Lolita for the MeToo era is the season s biggest selling debut by David Canfield this one too GR My Dark Vanessa Courts Controversy on the Page and Off with April UmmingerItems of Interest Mountains an excerpt from an early version of the novel Split Lip Magazine The Second One in Five Parts short story by KER KER s Twitter handle is a sly Nabakovian reference Vulture My Dark Vanessa Was an Oprah s Book Club Pick Then It Was Abruptly Dropped by Lila Shapiro BuzzFeed March 10 2020 How My Dark Vanessa Became One Of The Biggest Books Of The Year by Anne Helen Petersen Lots of great intel in this one definitely check it outReferenced Literature My Sharona you might want to throw things or wash after watching this with some new appreciation Left Alone by Fiona Apple ok the song is not specified in the book but Fiona Apple is Birches by Robert Frost Just what might this be about Lolita by Vladimir Nabakov public library of India Ditto as a PDF

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Read & download My Dark Vanessa My Dark Vanessa Read È 109 Kate Elizabeth Russell ↠ 9 Free read Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer2000 Bright ambitious and yearning for adulthood fifteen year old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane her magnetic and guileful forty two year old English teacher2017 Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men a reckoning is coming due Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former stude I think we re very similar Nessa he whispers From the way you write I can tell you re a dark romantic like me You like dark things 3 12 stars I really really want to give this book a higher rating but I cannot justify it when it is almost twice as long as it needed to be My Dark Vanessa has many powerful moments It s a discomfiting horrible story about an adult woman reevaluating the relationship she had with her English teacher when she was a teenager It is reminiscent of The Tale and of course Lolita which features heavily throughout Teenage Vanessa reads Lolita as a forbidden romance in which the titular protagonist is a cruel seductress but adult Vanessa begins to uestion that reasoningThe real power of this book is that it allows the reader to see how Vanessa truly falls for her abuser In the chapters where we relive her teenage years we are inside her head and experiencing his manipulation firsthand It is enticing It makes this lonely girl feel special intelligent and wanted She s not stupid she s heard of rapists and child abusers But this is why Jacob Strane gets away with it why many abusers get away with it because they convince their victims they are the exception to the ruleAnd how exciting it is for a young girl to be the exception to the rule To be the one and surely the only one that could make a good man stray from the righteous path We see how well he seduces her into thinking that they are two dark and lonely souls meant for each other in this cruel cruel world How could anyone else possibly understand themI ve almost talked myself into upping my rating by writing this review But here s the thing this book should have been a novella I don t know if there s a specific reason why the author shied away from writing a novella are they harder to publish but this story most certainly is one After a while there are long mind numbing stretches of boring repetition and superfluous detail So many things go on for too long Vanessa s relationship with Henry when she goes to a different school felt at best drawn out at worst it was completely unnecessary All of the secondary characters and there are uite a few were one dimensional Every single one There was a chunk in the middle that seemed to alternate between Nessa and Strane having revolting sexual encounters and long boring details of Vanessa s school and social life And for a book that spends so much time turning every detail of her life inside out it seems to end very abruptlyBut I will return to some positives because I am reluctant to end this review on a negative I thought it was excellent and very sad how the author showed the long term effects of the abuse on Vanessa s whole life her relationships her career and her sexuality It is so heart wrenching and disturbing when Vanessa catches herself imagining she is a young girl for sexual gratification and wonders if she too is a pervert I do recommend this book still I think it has a lot of important things to say and it cut me very deep It s just a shame that there is so much unnecessary paddingFacebook Instagram

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Read & download My Dark Vanessa My Dark Vanessa Read È 109 Kate Elizabeth Russell ↠ 9 Free read Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield Thought provoking and impossible to put down this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital uestions about agency consent complicity and victimhood Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room My Dark Vanessa is an era defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural s transforming our relationships and society itself 15 starsI wish I could somehow unread this disturbing book My curiosity got the best of me after reading the countless 5 star reviews It wasn t a storyline that appealed to me but I had to see what all the buzz was about After reading halfway through and feeling like I was missing something I continued on as my curiosity kept pushing me further and had me thinking this must get better Unfortunately it didn t get better after halfway in fact it got worse I finished this novel feeling nauseated upset and frustrated Not because I was so impacted by the storyline and characters I felt nauseated upset and frustrated because I don t understand a reason for a book like this to be written What is the author trying to convey I am definitely missing something here The ending was a let down There was no sense of hope or purpose There was nothing to feel good about For me the story lacked sensitivity and focused on shock factor The timeline jumped around and lacked flow As much as the plot disgusted me I never felt truly connected to the characters or storyline I felt upset about the situation but no emotional connection to the characters or investment in the storyline I don t like writing negative reviews I like to focus on the positives but there simply are no positives for me on this one I didn t enjoy the way this story was presented Please be warned that this is a highly uncomfortable novel that you MUST be prepared forThis was a Traveling Sister read with Brenda and Mary Beth We sit at the outlier table together as all three of us felt similar Thank you to Edelweiss for the review copy